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今天，明天，結束了!!!噢耶!!!

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對我來說

今天的結束和明天的結束

就是The End of the Semester!!!

 Yes!Yes! Yes!

唷西!!!!!

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今天的結束

Today is the final report also final exam of SLA

How was my report on SLA?

GOD!!!

It was goddam sucks!!!

well, not really (shrugs)

actually I spent quite a lot of time reading the text and trying to figure what the hell it is about

goddam it I swear I know what's in the text!

and goddam it I swear I was a little bit nervous when I was on the stage

actually I was too anxious to  pronouce every goddam word clearly.

and I was like a monkey you know

God!! It was silly, wasn't I.

actually it was like I was murmuring?

well, not really (shrugs)

kept walking forwards and backwards on the stage

I was  like exaggerating my actions, my tone, my facial expression

because I was too anxious that!!! I got too excited that!!! I exaggerated myself

maybe I just tried to hide my anxiety

stupid

this kind of phenomena showed many times, not just for this report

maybe it's part of me you know

get very excited when Im anxious

or

I just like the way I am

although it's a little bit stupid when I recall this 

but I couldn't control

I just can't

maybe  after I grow older, then I'll be tired of moving around on the stage when I get frighted(haha)

today my voice was loud enough

but it seemed that only few people understood what I was trying to say

gradually I lost my stucture, my organization

well, not really (shrugs)

because most of our class didn't learn syntax very well

including  me (haha)

so it was not weird for them to become numb toward what I was trying to say

I shouldn't be depressed about it

actually,

we kind of became numb too when we were listening to Stano' instruction(haha)

maybe I shouldn't care about whether my classmantes understand my lecture of not.

because even if it was Stano who gives the lecture

most of them still cannot understand I guess :p 

what the hell am I talking about

Ok I admit I care about how I performed today

I cannot ignore my heart is keeping asking me questions

I tried to persuade myself:

It was just a final exam..a final report...Stano will know that actually you understand the text..

well, not really (shrugs)

because I messed up the empty category, head category, and piped-piping.....

not really messed up

but I really did go blank....

I couldn't propose  good examples and I couldn't explain them clearly because my Syntax was not well-learned(shrugs)

also I didn't know how to distinguish Pro from pro

alas

haha...

so what

Stano just cares about his bicycle and his cute daughters you knowXD

He will not mind it so much

It was you

who give yourself too mcuh pressure

and it was you 

who laughed at yourself

well

maybe I should give myself a burst of applause

speaking English for 20minutes to explain linguistic

what a task!!!

but the truth is that my brain was blank at that time

and I forgot to hand in my lesson plan to Annie that I had to walk around the campus again just to hand in my assignment becuase I m going to teach a class in THU elementary school tomorrow morning

so I gotta hand in my lesson plan today

but because of my "brilliant" SLA report, I forgot to go to Annie.

so I gotta walk to FLLD's department again....

tiring 

but at least 

I can lose my weight

haha

anyway

I don't really like my brain go blank when I am on the stage

maybe I should be more prepared

I mean, be more concrete to show my understanding to myself, otherwise, it's really different to understand in your mind and speak it out.

most important of all

maybe making a handout is helpful not only to me but also to my classmates

jsut don't be that lazy (haha)

cheers!!! for tomorrow I'm going to the elementary school!!!

after that, I guess I am free because I think these are the two major terrible tasks for this semester...

cheers!!!

don't look back at today's failure

it was not that bad as you imagine I promise

just not that fluent  than you expect before (shrugs)

tomorrow

here comes a biggers task

focus on it

and learned the experience to day


goddam it 

I didn't buy my candies for children tomorrow yet!!!





don't  blame me why I typed so much English in this article

I believe there must be a lost of mistakes in it

because I just want to invent my messy thoughts, forgive me






but if my "dear dinctionary" wants to translate it for me

welcome

ha!